…Unladened, empty, I’m turned to stone.
It’s been long. Sooooo long… I just realised how the number of posts per month on my blog is directly proportional to the amount of work I have. And this is my first post this month.
Life is running too fast. I am going to turn 23 this Friday. My Masters is over. I have been working for 10 months now. In this hustle, I didn’t even realise that I wasn’t really prepared for any of this! I had heard people say that they are not yet ‘ready to start working’. Now when I think of it, nor was I and you know what, if you keep thinking about it, you’ll never be. No wonder guys have the whole committment-phobia. It’s all about crossing that line of making your decision. Thoughts and confusions and fears lead to this whole situation… Life is funny.
It’s weird the way your friends just count you out of their league, without even you noticing it. It’s all so momentary. So temperory. It does not take much time to move on, does it? Hmmm. People you were with on your last birthday, are all gone. It’s going to be the same day again, but you will either be alone, or with a new set of people. No wonder the concept of ‘making many friends’ has always freaked me out. Now that I think of it, most of them have become sheer acquaintances. Friends are special and they do last forever.
But then, reassurance and promise becomes a must. If that goes missing as well, you can’t tell friend from foe. It’s crazy. Relationships are so complicated. You take the biggest decisions of life just to realise in one abrupt moment that they’re all wrong.
They say opposites attract, but I am sure there is always too much of a noise.
I feel lost, but what’s new?
Song? ‘ Learning to fly’
Weather? Humid days, rainy nights
State of mind? Like I mentioned- unladened, empty, I’m turned to stone…
