I don’t understand people. I don’t know who to trust. I now think that having faith in people is plain idiocy. I don’t want to move on in life. I want to freeze time. Or even better, turn back time and then freeze it. Life’s running way too fast and I don’t even realise how many stations have I already missed. With each new day comes another weird responsibilty to handle and as of now, it makes no sense whatsoever. I can’t sleep in the nights. I wake up sweating most of the times. Scary dreams, ugly creatures, death, darkness, gloom… That’s what my dreams are all about… I don’t know what’s wrong with me…
I want to go back, but where to? I feel like my mind is wrapped with warped thoughts. I am suffocated. I like my job but I don’t. And it’s not like I enjoy being this gloomy and sulky all the time.
The fact is, no matter how fine I seem otherwise, I am not happy. Plain simple truth-I am not happy.
I want to catch up with all the lost time. I want to make up for all the goof-ups. I want my friends. I want my family. I want reassurance. I want peace. I am tired… exhausted… completely drained…
I am just so…bummed…
