You know, there are times when you want to get rid of almost all memories that stay with you in your heart and mind. But then, you can’t really do that. Memories are like strong impressions that the mind automatically absorbs and stores. Mind is a funny thing. Complicated, yet carries the answers to almost all possible queries. It’s all an illusion of the mind, the manas. I don’t know what I am tryin to say here.
I finally moved in to a place of my own. Well, I do miss my hostel but I also feel damn kicked about this new place! Though I was very tired last night, I still managed to unpack most of my stuff and tried to set up my room. Well, technically, I am sharing it with another girl but the house is huge and hence I can set up whatever I want, wherever I want. I love the fact that the kitchen is well equipped; I can cook anytime! So, I am guessing there’l be lots of coffee in the middle of the night! I shall put up some pics of my place soon 
Well, I have a weird thought process. It is very disjointed. Most of the times it sounds like I am maundering. Well okay, I know I do but then that’s how think; Almost straight!!!
It was her first death anniversary yesterday. I so wanted to call her parents but somehow I just couldn’t. I would either break down or just be so blank that even they would have nothing to say to me. And the worst thing is guilt, I haven’t called them since last February. Well, I prayed for her. Well, I don’t really wanna write about her. I’d rather keep this particular memory very personal. One memory I really want to cling on to. At the end of the day I am glad that I atleast got to spend sometime with that wonderful ray of hope called Anu. I miss you babe.
The weekend was cool and hectic and fun. A friend had come down to see me. But coz I had to shift I hardly spent any time with him. I feel sorry about that but darn!, I had a blast when we went out on Sunday night.
Oh, karaoke is fun. On Sunday night, I went with my friends to this place called “Firangi Paani” and had a b-l-a-s-t. We sang all songs as if we are all professional singers. Our throats got sore but we still sang. Oh, we also heard some amazing voices. Some people can really sing! Wow. hmmm. It was nice. I don’t know why the place is called “‘Firangi’ paan” though. Oh well. Whatever.
So, Rodger Waters in coming to Mumbai next month on the 18. And I am a huge Floyd fan. And it’s a long weekend. And the concert is on a Sunday. And I should *SO* go for the concert. BUT, I can’t! I have no money! It will cost me a bomb! I don’t know what to do!! Beg, borrow, steal? Well, maybe not the last option but how about the first two? hmm.
Shilpa Shetty won the much talked about show ‘Big Brother’. Well, good for her. But I am very impressed with the way she thanked all the Pakistanis and the entire Asian community for supporting her during the “Jade Goody’s episode”. Well, I don’t get the point of the show but I hope someone somewhere does. Whatever.
I dreamt that Moninder Singh, the psychpath who raped, killed and then ate the body parts of the departed children has been set loose in an amphi-theatre where a crowd of around 3,000 people is waiting for him. He is left in the middle of the ground and people start stoning him. It was crazy coz I was sweating as I dreamt. That f****r should actually be left to the public. Parents of all those children who fell victim to this psycho’s insanely sexual fantasies and ‘carnivorous’ instincts should chop his balls, cut his arms and legs and ears and nose with a sharp blade, slowly and slowly. Ok, I can’t write anymore on this, my palm becomes hot and I feel sick in my tummy.
Anyway, I can’t imagine life without radio. I love ‘Indigo’. It plays awesome songs, all the time. I also love Pink Noise on Radio City. Last night she played some great music; all love songs. Nice.
Why can’t money, for a change, actually grow on trees? I mean, I cannot attend the concert because I don’t have money and that just sucks. But then, usually Life does.
Oh well…
Oh, song? ‘Teri Deewaani”, Kailash Kher
State of mind? Restless, chaotic, occupied, stressed
Weather? Pleasantly, warmishly cold.
Rock and roll…
